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Last Thursday, I went to clinic for blood donation. That was the first time I donate my blood. They’re asking for 400cc maximum for each donor but I given 650cc. They allow me, since I’m pretty healthy and they need more blood since other donor wannabes are rejected for many reasons. I felt little dizzy the first time I rise from the bed. “Twas great!

Thursday again, another first time happened in my life here in Doha – watched movie.

I love some changes in my life here.

After posting my previous message, I was really surprised how many people visiting and reading this webpage. And most of all, how many of them (really) care for me.

Did I sounds really down in my last posting? No I’m not! I’m just trying to be creative and to express what’s in my mind and what I feel. ‘Twas just been one of those ordinary days…

This is where my anonymity theory in web diary is all about. How can I write here without thinking other people that knows me what they will think when they read it? It’s difficult, right? Well, I’ll keep on experimenting.

Thanks to all the people that show care. Nothing to worry folks, I’m perfectly fine and situations are all under control. Cheers!

One last thing, I received one email from one of my friend (you know who you are) and saying, “ain’t” is not a word! Well, check this out pal, “ain’t” is a word! Now, make sure when correcting me. Nyahahaha. V

Ever have one of those days where it feels like everything’s going downhill? Like nothing you try to do works out, and there’s nothing you can do about it…

That was me, today. I feel like I’m falling behind, but I don’t know what it is I’m trying to keep up with in the first place. Like I’m in some futile struggle against nothing in particular, and I’m not entirely sure it even matters because my actions seem to be fairly insignificant anyway. Everything, apparently, is a waste of time and effort, however little (or much) time and effort one might put into things.

No, I’m not sliding into clinical depression or anything, and I’m sorry if I seem melodramatic. I’m just in a slump, and not sure how to get out of it. Maybe I need to clear my head a bit (oh no, I don’t want to shave my head again!). Or maybe spending a day away from work - but it would just make me feel more like I’m lapsing, so I should stay in and finish a few projects. Maybe make some phone calls. I dunno. I think I’ll base it on what will happened tonight. I’ll try to play basketball and/or run in seaside. Or something.

Last week, I’m really tired mentally due to problem we faced in our company’s connection to the Internet. Our ISP changed the IP address of all our servers, and it seems it’s kinda simple and straightforward changeover but the lone ISP here in Qatar give me real pain in my ass sitting and hacking our DNS server for whole week. They don’t understand that our domain is completely depending on their DNS server. Even I configure it right in our domain, they should do it accordingly in there side since they are our Primary DNS server. It took whole week for them to figure out what’s the problem, causing to suffer all companies and government agencies here in Qatar. Our legal department I guess preparing a complain to that stupid ISP for affecting our business.

You know what, since I bought my car, seems like people (friends?) surround me are creating some kind of conflicts with each other. I’m studying now there pattern and behavior and I should be careful not to create any trend and force that will be against to any of us.

Here’s something else I’ve been thinking about. How hard is it to run a website that nobody (at least, without some real effort) can link to you? And also I’ve been reading a lot of weblogs recently, and have come to the conclusion that you can only really let loose on a web journal if you don’t care what people you know will think when they read it. One could keep a traditional diary, ’tis true… but with a diary, no-one else at all ever reads what you’ve written, which makes the whole exercise seem fairly pointless to me. If you had a truly anonymous web diary, though, you could gain the comfort of knowing that people are reading what you write (and perhaps responding) while simultaneously maintaining some privacy. Anonymity is a powerful thing, and unfortunately the current trend seems to be to destroy anonymity wherever possible.

I think I’ll give that a shot. Hopefully, you’ll never know whether I’ve succeeded or not.

Yeah, after writing this, I’m feeling better now. Whatta therapy!