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We have a new Indian tea-boy here in our office, his name is Rosario Fernandez. I know it’s almost impossible for him to find this posting so I really have a legitimate purpose in writing this.

I just couldn’t believe how best Rosario in his nature of job. Since I started working here in my company, we had maybe 5 different tea boys already and I dunno how to describe their performance. I’m not against them; of course it’s understandable that they are limited as far as professionalism is concerned (hey! I’m not seeing their job that small, I respect them very much). But when this new guy Rosario replaced our old tea boy recently, I cannot stop myself to admire his working attitude and his service is really exceptional. He never stops going around to each offices and offering drinks. He truly makes sure that everything in pantry is clean and order. And one thing really noticeable for me is how he’s doing his service. You can feel that he truly loves his job and he’s giving his best. His attitude is communicable and it serves as another inspiration of me.

I just remember one thing while writing this, couple of years ago, when I first came here in this company, I’m really surprised that we have someone offering for drinks. Ordinarily in the Philippines and maybe in US or in Europe’s corporate world, there are no such people that will do you coffee thing. Its quiet awkward for me that someone will prepare my drinks and so from that time until today, I guess I’m the only person here in the office who’s not asking to prepare drinks from our tea boy.

Instead I often interact with them including our “cleaners”. Specially if I’m kinda tired and want to talk something out of my working horizon, I’m going to our pantry to have some laughing moment with our tea boy or go down stairs to the cleaning boy small room. Most of the time they will talk about there country (i.e. India or Nepal) and sometimes there family’s situation. We usually eat together “pratha” and “khobes” – their local bread (gosh! I’m used to the taste of it already and start liking it), it became now the daily food I’m eating here.

Moments with them are really interesting and I’m learning a lot. They are all away with there respective families and usually there contract is 2 years, and after that they are not sure whether they can continue their work or they need to find another employer. Very tough situation since they are only getting very low salary. So within that span of time they need to prepare there life and save as much as they can.

Sometimes I’m feeling pity with them especially how they are treated by other nationality and even sometimes their own countryman. They are not receiving the respect they deserved.

While when we are talking about life, I’m always challenging them and let them realize to aim for higher goals specially after their working contract here. Sometimes they are interacting positively but most of the time they think in limited way and they are already contented with their present life situation and willing to just to continue again the cycle of their life.

For me, they are big part of my working life here. They don’t have much difference with other executives and even sometimes those tea-boys and clean-boys are better than those men-in-ties as far as attitude and humanity is concerned.

I’m always hoping and I’ll keep on doing this that in one way or another, I’ll touch there life by opening their mind and spirit to the unlimited world.

My day start at 3:00 AM, I have time to study my assignment up to 5AM. Do I still have assignments? My answer is yes. Every patient that is due the following day for follow-up, I consider it an assignment to read more about that particular disease, especially if the case is unusual, that is the only way in my own opinion a DOCTOR become superior to other MD. In my view where you graduate (SCHOOL) only reflect when you apply for RESIDENCY training, and the first 2 years of practice, but after that it is up to an individual how you update yourself.
Everyday we are bombarded by approximately 7,000 journals. You have to do your very best to read at least 10% of it, otherwise you will become obsolete, That is how important to us to have the computer for data storage, and to update ourselves, because even you are the best among the best you cannot memorize it all.
If your present MD is not literate to computer or doest have one yet, be careful he or she may be OUTDATED.
There is two-drug company who is fighting for my prescription, which is cool. By just prescribing their medicine, they will give me a reward? One drug company want to give me a PALMTOP of my choice, just to prescribe their hypertensive MEDS, and the other one a complete set of AQAUARIUM. That is the beauty when they recognize that your practice is good.
Tomorrow we don’t have clinic, because my wife (DRA. AMELYN RAFAEL) is schedule to have her every 2 weeks prenatal check-up to DRA. SOL PANGAN (OBSTETRICIAN) in ST Lukes Medical Center.

I am the elder brother of Sandro, who accidentally became a Medical Doctor.
Is that true? Of course, YES!

I was invited by my brother to divulge my daily subsistence. Expect to read here my daily involvement in the field of medicine as a PRIVATE MD, and occasionally as a FAMILY MAN. You can ask question, just send me an e-mail.

Oh, by the way just to inform the world that my son RYAN was chosen by the principal to have a special class in computer. They select to every level for example in toddler, Nursery, Kinder, Prep, Grade 1 etc. one student whom they think excel in the class. Ryan is only 3 years and 8 months.

Happy birthday to my closest and knows_me_best person on universe!
You’re 9 years older than me again. Hehehe.
Always do your best…. I’m modeling you.

Gift for you? Hmmm… do I need to?
Okay, okay… I know your beseeching for this for so long…
It starts with little L!
Laptop?
Nope…
I’ll give you… LOVE!

Hehehe.

Seriously, in my coming vacation, you’ll have a computer of your choice!
Wow!

p.s.
Manoy, I need to read your comment in this posting. Share something about your self, your ideas, plans, dreams, what you feel being XX years old, your satisfactions in life, being soon a father of two, a husband of great wife, anything you want to share. I just need some words from you.

No comment – No Computer.

This article written by Fr. Jerry M. Orbos, SVD in INQ7. Nice and worry-free to read and I want to share this to all worriers out there.

ONE time while driving to the province with my nephews and nieces who were then still small, we happened to follow a tricycle carrying two pigs. I didn’t give it much thought until one of my nieces said: “Hey look how good the owner is to take his pigs around for a ride (pasyal) and for sightseeing!”

That very moment, I realized how “adult” I had become, seeing those pigs as nothing but dead meat, while my niece saw in them live tourists! I saw the owner as an impersonal user, while my niece saw him as a thoughtful father. We both saw the same reality, but we had two entirely different perceptions.

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In today’s Gospel (Lk. 10, 38-42), we hear of two sisters, Martha and Mary, who loved the same Lord, yet perceived to love and serve Him in two different ways. Martha loved the Lord with her serving, while Mary loved the Lord with her listening and presence. The Lord ends up admonishing Martha not to be anxious or worried about many things, and going further, ends up with a twist, citing Mary as the one who has chosen the better part!

Like me, perhaps you must have thought that Jesus was unfair to Martha who had to do all the dirty work while Mary literally was just “sitting pretty.” I don’t know how this episode ended. Perhaps Martha got hurt or felt offended. Maybe she even organized a protest rally and so on. But the message is clear: God’s ways are not man’s ways. God sees bigger and broader than we. That being the case, we must continue to share His horizons. We must continue to see the “big picture” and not be glued to our little screens. In others words, we must not limit God, His love, His generosity, His wisdom and His providence.

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What is a worrier? A worrier is a person who has lots of fears, insecurities, apprehensions in life and all that. But basically, a worrier is one who forgets who he is and who God is in his life. A worrier is simply one who lacks trust in God. In his desire to be in control of everything and of everyone (including himself), he forgets that there is a power greater than himself, and so he ends up with manipulation, accumulation, accommodation and even deception so that he can hold on and control. Not wanting to “lose his grip,” he’ll hold on to anything or to anyone instead of holding on to God.

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God helps those who help themselves, right? Right! Act as if everything depended upon you, and pray as if everything depended upon God, right? Right again.

So what’s the problem? The problem is that we adults tend to exaggerate more the action part, “just in case.” And we proudly call that being mature, being grown-up and being practical, “just in case.” We look down on people who are so trusting, and see them as naïve, strange, or even stupid, like children. An adult surely can not be careless! But God is not asking us to be careless when we trust as adults. All He is asking us is that we care less, because He cares for us!

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Someone said that 92 percent of what we worry about never really happens and the 8 percent usually is manageable, and that which happens was bound to happen. It was not within our control from the very start. Instead of worrying about it, why don’t you entrust what is bound to happen to God who has a reason, a plan (a good one) for anything that will happen? Don’t forget there is a bigger plan than your personal plans. That’s why it is called a master plan. It is your Master’s plan. Some people have everything planned up–financial plan, health plan, vacation plan, retirement plan, memorial plan (even leche plan)–but forget their Master’s plan in this life and in the life to come.

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Most of our worries, whether real or imagined, stem from fear. The antidote to fear is not worry but trust. Don’t forget what someone proclaimed some 2,000 years ago about the birds in the air, and the flowers that bloom and His Father who takes care of them. How much more will He take care of us His daughters and sons. Fear is useless. What is needed is trust.

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For those who are worried and keep worrying about their health, remember, none of us will leave this world alive! So, stop worrying! The more you worry about it, the more your health deteriorates.

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I used to worry about this Sunday column. From Monday on, I’d start agonizing already about what to write, what to say, etc., etc. Not anymore, I decided to start worrying from Friday on na lang. In other words, I have learned how to deal and cope with worry. Change of outlook is a big difference. But more than outlook, it’s the uplook that really works!

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You’re not happy? Maybe it is because you worry. So, don’t worry, be happy! Remember the song? Sing it. Don’t worry if you’re out of tune. Just sing, sing your song.

(((((((Yawn)))))))

How come I’m awake now? Not a good sleep obviously. I slept almost 5am, and manage to sleep 30 minutes after. Woke up as early as 7:30am. Terrible.

I already finished my breakfast and again now in front of this damn monitor.

The installation of my Oracle seems not the right setup I want to. It caused my Agila to run so slow utilizing almost 95% of my CPU Power and consuming more than the amount of my physical memory (now using virtual memory from hard disk).

Also the Cappuccino of our GM giving me lots of inconsistency in performance so I’m thoroughly checking this as well.

I’ll finish first these things before I’ll do my other chores.

Or better I sleep again first…

Four in the morning here already in Qatar and I’m still very much awake. Doing night life? Nahhh! Yes, I’m configuring our GM’s mini-book and at the same time I’m also installing Oracle 8i Enterprise Edition to my Agila including Enterprise Manager and Developer. I’m not feeling sleepy at all; I’m enjoying very much.

Still non working day for me today so no problem. I can sleep all day long later, only my class tonight I need to worry… oh wait, I still need to wash my clothes and clean my room… Wahhhh!

I just talked to my parents in Manila – they just arrived for Mama’s periodic checkup. Papa has some cough and colds. Get well soon Pa.

Please help me in praying for good result of Mama’s checkup.

Oh by the way I decided to change the layout of my main page, so what do you think? Better or Worse? Rate me please.

A very busy week for me… but it was satisfying.

Right now I’m still here in the office studying some new things. I have now the “toy stuff” I needed for so long; Oracle 9i and Slackware 8.0. All I need to do now is to start the first big step – installation of it.

I’ll not go home until I successfully do it…

This was posted by my friend Stephen Polo in strdocGroups. Long but must to read.

Somebody once told me that “Finding the right person is very hard and very wrong…..it is best to be the right person for the one you love and start from there…you’ll always end up disappointed when you set standards and define a “right person” for you… and don’t rush things… coz somewhere somehow God is preparing somebody for you.”

You can never be perfect…the person you love can never be perfect…but both of you can be perfect through love and prayers, and your love can be perfect through the both of you. But, no relationship is complete without God… that’s why we have marriage..it’s a bond not only between you and your loved one….but also with God.

Our relationships fail not because (s)he’s not the right person….it’s because we expected too much and we decided on our own… let God do the work… you may call it waiting time… but while you are waiting…pray. Let God guide you always… He knows better. No, He knows best.

Love is not what you think it is…. Sometimes we mistakenly feel that our first relationship will be our last. Because we are overwhelmed with joy and romance, we forget to learn the meaning of true love. Some are saying that love is unselfish, blind, unconditional or simply denying oneself for the sake of someone very important in our life.

Others are saying love is immortal and can never be defined. When we think we’re in love the first thing we almost wanted the whole world to know is that our love for someone very special can never be taken away from us. We say this phrase “You are the most wonderful gift from GOD I have ever received…” After a terrible fight or sometimes even a petty quarrel we then say “You are the biggest mistake I’ve ever made for my entire life!!”. Now, how do you say and spell the word L-O-V-E? Are you really deeply into it?.

Nobody can tell what love really is until experience speaks and whispers right into our ears. Most of the time, these love promises like “Forever, Till Death do us apart, etc.” would end up “Never” and “We should part ways, I’m no longer happy with you! My love for you is DEAD!!!”. Many times we thought after having committed to someone and your trust to one another freezes down to zero degree “S/He ain’t the right one. I should probably wait for the right one to come.” But the big question anyone could not answer is “Is she/he the right one?” and “When is the right time?” That made us stick to whom we are with. Will you always be waiting for the right person to come and the right time to commit? A big YES is the answer.

Don’t be in a hurry to get into a relationship because you can never find love if you insist that you are already into it. Try to find time to really understand your real feelings, to know who you really are, and what you really want in a relationship. You’re right, there is no such thing as a perfect relationship, but there’s a compatible partnership that goes along with it. If you already knew that you’re too big to fit into a small sized t-shirt, don’t give it a try. You’ll probably break it and pay for the damages you have made. If you knew and felt that the relationship will not last, don’t go deeper into it. You’ll just suffer the consequences and live like hell the rest of your life.

It’s really hard to say goodbye though, but you can’t make it any better by just pretending you still have the same feelings. Try to let go and give yourself a chance to live life to the fullest. Give yourself a chance to grow and give your heart a much needed attention. Then you will find that you have made the right decision and you made it all by yourself. More frequently than not, we all act in a hypocritical manner for some reason.

We call it love when we can’t leave someone and see them crying as we try to let go. We are wrong, its just pity. We call it love when we’re too attached and think that losing the one we love will somehow make us weak and unable to face the storms of life. We misunderstood, its just that we’re too much dependent to them. We call it love when we give our whole life to them, the wholeness of us and imagined that if they leave no one would accept us and our past. We are mistaken, its just insecurity. But no matter what the definition is, the truth still remains that love isn’t something you can buy nor beg. It is real and existing. You can’t touch it but you can feel it in your heart. You can’t find it, but it will knock before you when you least expect it to come. It can make you the happiest soul in heaven, but don’t forget that it also can make you the most miserable person in the whole galaxy.

Wew!

“Contentment is not the fulfilment of what you want,
it is the realization of how much you already have.”

Love is the hardest thing in the world to explain.
It’s not something you learn in school. But if you
haven’t learned the meaning of love, you really
haven’t learned anything.

Silverstone F1 just finished and Mika Hakkinen won as Michael Schumacher just settled for 2nd place. At first I’m feeling bad about this, as I’m expecting Michael to win this race again. But of course, you cannot win always otherwise there will be no competition. What count here is Michael added more leads to his Championship this year against David Coulthard who retired after couple of laps caused by a damaged rear suspension he touched and spun off Jarno Trulli at start.

Again this race display some significant that we can learn, as Mika Hakkinen a previous double world champion but now way behind in Championship race shows again his form of winning - he’s NOT giving up.

Another thing that felt me bad in today’s race, our cable TV have some problem in reception in that sports channel. I can tolerate the Arabic language they are using in coverage but at least I need a good picture.

My eyes feeling worn-out as I need to get ready for tonight’s class.

Need to go now.